Thank me now

I don't think I could thank me. I look at myself now and wonder what happened to me. Where is the life I wanted? I always pictured myself as carefree person, no structure being able to do whatever, whenever.  Well at 37 that is so not the case.  I get up travel about and hour only to spend the next few hours thinking, fuck when will this be over.  While the people I work with are fine, the structure and decisions surrounding our job makes it difficult. I always thought I would live in a city, and have more things to do than time in the day.  Thanks me that didn't happen. I don't hate my hometown, you know after 37 years here it way past time to move.  I want to move soon. Lexington, would be nice,  good city nice layout.   I also wouldn't mind moving to Pittsburgh, but it doesn't seem to be in the cards for me. I also think Cincinnati would be a good choice.  I would love to move to Orlando, Jacksonville not likely.  I will keep rolling the dice, hoping something comes up.